Forcing myself to do this

Before I had written that I had missed a couple days :/ Unfortunate I know. And I had such anxiety about starting back up. I genuinely felt like I didn't want to do this. I just had this bad connotation in the back of my head, this idea that this was such a terrible thing. And I didn't want to do it. But I forced myself to do it. And rather than skip the days that I had missed, I just took up where I left off with the Cardio Recovery. I wanted to have a nice transition and I want to get the full experience rather than just cutting corners.

I think I'm just dealing with a lot of pressure right now. And it's all kinda self-inflicted. I love my water aerobics class. I do. I seriously do. And a lot of what I'm learning is great. And I want to make a change in my diet, in my lifestyle, but there's so much work involved. And it's just crazy to think about. It just feels like I'll have to shift so many things. It's something that I want to work on though. I want to cook. I want to have nights during the semester when my bf and I can have a date night and we cook together.

I don't know how to cook :/ And this is just gonna be a big step for me. It doesn't seem like it for some people I guess, but the whole planning ahead and having enough stuff to make food and not just have it lying around for whenever I need it.... I guess it's the planning that I'm getting hung up on.

Planning to make room for working out. Planning to make room for cooking and shopping so I can cook.

But I do want to make an effort.

And thanks to my all time bestie for keeping me motivated and doing this blog and supporting me with everything. Thanks Sweet Tits ;)